12 Sentence Paragraph Venerated by his parishioners to nearly angelic status, Dimmesdale lives a secret life of torment that impels him to destructive thoughts and behaviors. The roots of Dimmesdale??™s destructive thoughts come from the offense he and Hester had committed. Dimmesdale ultimately starts to go insane from these damaging thoughts he is having. As soon has Dimmesdale and Chillingworth have a talk about sharing sins and secrets, Dimmesdale starts to go crazy. He begins to have fantasies that he sometimes believes are real, ???Ghost of a mother,–thinnest fantasy of a mother,–methinks she might yet have thrown a pitying glance towards her son! And now, through the chamber which these spectral thoughts had made so ghastly, glided Hester Prynne, leading along little Pearl, in her scarlet garb, and pointing her forefinger, first at the scarlet letter on her bosom, and then at the clergyman??™s own breast??? (Hawthorne 150).
The fantasy that Dimmesdale had displays how his mind is twisting reality and driving him to become insane. Although Dimmesdale is having destructive thoughts, he is also showing some detrimental behaviors. When Dimmesdale starts to go mad, he tries to find ways to purify himself and ways to be forgiven. ???He kept vigils, likewise night after night, sometimes in utter darkness??¦ he thus typified the constant introspection wherewith he tortured, but could not purify, himself. In these lengthened vigils, his brain often reeled, and visions seemed to flit before him??? (Hawthorne 150). Dimmesdale thought by torturing himself and holding vigils, he would thus be forgiven.
As Dimmesdale??™s secret life is eating is mind away to nothing, he eventually can not take it anymore. While giving his speech he can??™t seize his sin in any longer ???He tells you, that, with all its mysterious horror, it is but the shadow of what he bears on his own breast, and that even this, his own red stigma, is no more than the type of what has seared his inmost heart??? (Hawthorne 268). Dimmesdale??™s secret life eventually made him so mad that he couldn??™t stand it any longer. Dimmesdale??™s whole life revolved around the offense that he had committed with Hester.
His secret impelled him to have destructive thoughts and behaviors, which eventually led to death.